Friday, December 22, 2006
it's been a long long time since i update.
tings haf been well (:
glad to say tt.
went to DOWNTOWN EAST thrice in jux 2 wks.
1 hr trip on e mrt is so torturous each time.
but stil. we managed to survive thru it (x
crap.
e chalet was SUPRENDOUS!
thx my dear.
for turning my birthday into a real special one (:
i do appreciate wad u've done.
so pls dun ever again say i dun.
rain in n out.
making every activity so damp-atous.
luckily it din rain alot yday while we were out at sentosa.
saw graham yday.
stil e same old him.
it's been a long time since i meet up wif my national camp mates.
rmbed e times when we cheered together as one.
it was as heart warming as ever (:
anyway pple.
do check out my new you tube display on e right.
full house fanatics will definately love it (x
OGL stuff coming up.
hols ending.
christmas nearing.
it's time to enjoy life to e fullest b4 i start my engine for yr2.
it's not gonna be easy.
but at least i haf my frens n him ard wif mi (:
CAMBETTE pple!
strive hard n we'll enjoy e fruits of our labour next yr end.
kaleidoscope of life ~
<lotsa love>
emily_* ^smiling always^
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1:04 PM
Saturday, December 02, 2006
oh damm it man!
ming ming beat mi to updating bout zouk nite.
hahaz.
oh well.
i shall save some space n let her do e details.
but of cox.
i enjoyed myself.
okie okie.
it's more den enjoyed lahx.
was super crazy tt nite (x
as if we were in a disco rather den pub.
dance n dance n dance e nite away.
e feeling was FANTASTIC!!
dance fanatics like mi shuld understand how i felt.
it was lyk paradise.
heavenly cool..
the nite was young when everything ended.
n so fook had to offer his hospitality to us (x
thx alot for giving up ur bed.
so warm n snuggly in there.
probably cox he was there to hold mi when i slp.
he was 1st to fell aslp though (x
going out again ltr to bbq wif his family.
it's been a long time since i had this tingly feeling.
felt so great! (:
thankew for deciding to come home.
u chose e right timing.
if oni it was a lil later.
u'll probably face a whole string of rejections.
but wadeva it is.
i hope it'll last this tym round.
n i guess it will ba.
after all e tings tt we've been thru.
well.
all i wanna say now is i trust u whole heartedly n i stil do.
i will continue to love u as much as i haf.
so pls hold on to my heart n nvr let go again.
for all tt it takes..
[[*wo hui yong yuan ai ni___]] -0812-
<lotsa love>
emily_* ^smiling always^
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1:10 PM
Saturday, November 18, 2006
i love my class man!!
thurs was so crazy lahx.
we went to east coast for some picnic gathering.
but ended up blading more den we eat.
hahaz.
the mrt trip was full of gossips.
like some aunties going shopping together (x
but e sad ting is e guys din join us.
so it ended up jux e usual bo liao gals again.
aiya. we're so well-known for tt already.
it was bad enuf tt e weather was so scorching.
fook stil hafta wear tt long BLACK sleeve shirt n pants.
hahaz. in case u forget.
black is e best absorbant of heat (x
oh yes. this i hafta say.
the GUYS might as well change their gender.
when they allowed us to carry e super heavy bags all e way to east coast.
even when we ASKED for help.
n lyk e old saying goes..
we cannot judge a book by it's cover.
jux lyk how we cannot judge how gentlemanly JASON is by his looks.
AARRRGGGHHHHH.....
how dare he look behind when we specifically asked him for his kind help!!
aniwaes..
shortly after reaching our destination.
we settled down for our homemade lunch.
while some booby dinosaur went for her swim.
not to be mean.
but she looked lyk she jux came out from e mad house or smth.
perhaps she tot she was sexy i guess =x
n den. HK finally came.
wif a can of heinekein in his hands.
claiming tt he was thirsty.
omgness.
who ever quench their thirst wif a bottle of alcohol!!
but thank god he was there.
cox there wuldn be e highlight of tt day's activities if it wasn for him (x
the weather was so unpredictable.
shine n rain.
passing clouds n heavy downfall again.
we got so fed up tt we decided to blade in e rain.
n mabi tt's where i got my cold from.
hahaz (: it was fun though.
it's so funny seeing e guys trying so hard to blade.
while we were doing it quite at ease.
especially ming ming.
she's so damm good lahx!!
but due to e fact tt we were beta at blading.
we had to suffer under e torture of tt dinosaur again.
luckily for mi.
i escaped!! wahahahax..
dinner was at mac.
while we discussed bout ZOUK.
i jux cant wait man!
another week plus to go.
it's lyk foreva...
anyway pple.
HK is organising an underage party at ZOUK.
be sure to be there on e 30th of nov okie (:
at last came e most impt activity of e day (x
e whole group of us squeezed into seven 11.
"whispering" bout wad drinks we were gonna get.
drinks as in e ones where u had to produce ur IC to buy them.
lolz.
well anyway.
i got a bottle of spooky at first.
while ming got cola n stella asaki.
n wif much regrets.
e dinosaur got e same ting as mi.
to our surprise.
HK din get anything for himself!
oh. i forgot to mention tt it was oni initially.
hahaz.
went to e rocks by e sea.
watching e stars in e nightlight.
singing along wif e wind.
how romantic..
wif a bunch of noisy pple though.
heex.
actualie. the truth is.
i was e main noise producer (x
screamed my hearts n lungs out.
drowned all my sorrows in tt whole 10% of alcohol.
wif a lovely group of frens.
who stood by mi rain or shine.
i culd say.
i'm reali v thankful to them.
nvr haf i met such pple in my life.
who culd gif mi such joy n laughter.
other den him.
i love u guys. i reali do.
from e bottom of my heartx (:
we sang a thousands songs.
n a thousand miles too (x
reminded each other of e pain tt we've gone thru.
at e same tym.
trying our v best to forget them.
at least jux for tt v night.
our faces were extra red aft e drink.
especially mine. hahaz.
had a bit of migraine.
but stil e enjoyment was absolutely unforgettable.
went crazy over e camera on e way back.
took so mani pics tt i was an hr late hm.
it was worthwhile though.
hahaz (:
* refer to friendster for them okie *
Ao6 keep R0cking on yea!
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yday was e first time ever.
we were so rash.
but cool!
hahaz.
went to clementi kbox on a sudden decision.
passed by mani shops n it reminded mi of those days.
e days when everything was jux rite.
e times when we culd jux sit in mac n chat non-stop for e whole afternoon.
tt were e days when nth seemed to matter.
as e old goes e new arrives.
but frens of e past wil not b forgotten.
yes i assure u they wun (:
stella n ming decided to go crazy wif mi.
skipped vball training for singing.
but wasn high at all.
we jux sang to our own voices.
own tune. own songs.
it was rather nice for a change.
first tym at kbox so peaceful (x
so excited!
mabi going kbox again nxt thurs.
n this tym.
it's wif zhou ren n sk too.
heex..
gonna go crazy again once more (x
till e day we meet...
HAF FUN PEOPLE!! (^.^)
<lotsa love>
emily_* ^smiling always^
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1:10 PM
Thursday, November 09, 2006
life's a struggle.
hmms.
got this from eve's tag.
ming intro it to her though.
haf been trying rather hard to be optimisstic.
n i can say i've succeeded till now.
nono.
emily cant be depress.
it's so not like her.
everything changes.
but beauty remains.
life doesn oni revolves around love.
i've gotta realise this sooner or ltr.
family, friendship, fun, studies.
den after tt does love come in.
is it this way?
some people search foreva.
for that one special kiss.
i haf found it haven i?
or was i too dumb to believe tt it's it.
i wan u to catch mi when i fall.
but it was u tt i fall.
a moment like this.
i cant believe it's happening to mi.
i shall not read too much into the lines.
worried for a fren.
concern for her.
wake up from the fantasy.
wake up from the nightmare.
i maybe dreaming.
but till i'm awake.
cant we make this dream last foreva.
n i'll cherish all e love tt we share.
but it's too late i guess.
culdn haf happen again.
wad if i told u.
it was all meant to be.
perhaps.
it's reali over.
some people wait a lifetime.
for a moment like this.
i've been waiting.
too long tt hope is fading.
fear is buliding.
collapsing in front of mi.
in ur eyes.
i found the greatest prize.
hold mi close.
dry my tears.
leave mi in ur arms foreva.
hug mi tight.
dun chase mi away.
it's where the stars lines up.
it's where the oceans touch.
a fairy tale tt nvr ends.
it's time i face up to reality.
love is reali not everything.
it's where u gif ur all n gif a lil more.
tt's where u find love..
the ending of one,
marks the starting of another.
ti`amo//2315.19.149//je`taime
- jie -
<lotsa love>
emily_* ^smiling always^
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11:32 AM
Saturday, November 04, 2006
i jux realised tt 13 out of 21 of my entries are filled wif all e tings happening between us.
oh well.
sorry pple for e depressing tone.
but reali cant help it.
this is e place where i can express my tots almost freely.
wait till everything is settled.
will my blog be back to e brighter side again.
for now jux bear wif mi yea.
hmmms.
wonder wad is going on in his mind.
secrets tt cant be told.
i wuld rather be informed of wad is going on.
being kept in e dark is not fantastic.
finally realised wad it means to be lied to.
if there reali is someone else, jux say.
mabi i wun feel so bad after all.
unless i were to find out myself.
i may die from tt instead.
so please.
if u r here n happen to read this.
bear it in mind tt honesty is always e best.
no1 loves to be ignorant.
neither do i.
how wuld u feel if i were to lie.
to bluff my way thru everything i say.
i noe it culd be hard.
but dun let ur heart decide.
control ur mind.
release all u haf got.
throw everything into my face.
treat mi as ur v best fren.
treat mi as ur 1 n oni jie.
wad i wan is e truth n oni e truth.
pls do not hide away from mi.
do not run away from reality.
u noe for sure.
this hafta be settled one day.
n if it drags on n on.
everyone will get hurt in e end.
so pls for godness sake.
if there's anything untold.
do open ur heart n tell it all.
jux lyk e past.
when we weren together in e 1st place.
share ur mind wif mi.
tt is all i ask for now.
but i guess it may hafta wait till e exams r over.
Jux keep going yea.
hang in there.
cox i'll be there.
i noe it's hard juggling so mani tings at once.
tt's why i'm not bothering u much.
concentrate on ur exams.
i believe u'll make it someday (^.^)
JIA YOU!!
<lotsa love>
emily_* ^smiling always^
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9:02 PM
Tuesday, October 31, 2006
it's 8.20am in the morning.
cant go back to dreamland anymore.
so here i am again.
dunno wad to do.
dunno wad to say.
for awhile i tot tings will be fine.
but for now.
it has reverted back to e dull old times.
heart full of emotions.
words stuck in the throat.
feel lyk shouting out to the world.
'please stop fooling around'
but no one's gonna hear mi for sure.
i'm a lil gal here.
tired n weak.
trying to be strong.
facade is the word.
oh god please remove the iron curtain between us.
i beg u for once.
please please please please please......
dun do this to mi.
it's totally ur choice i guess.
my hands stretched out to grab ur heart.
but it lies in the bottom of the deep blue sea.
perhaps this is e karma tt i've created upon mi.
shuldn haf come in between u n her.
shuldn haf caused e downfall of ur relationship.
if only i've stayed away.
mabi this wuldn haf happened.
but i was ignorant at tt tym.
wuldn haf known u wuld leave her for mi.
she was deeply heart broken i can see.
we din care a bit.
n it's my turn now.
zhe jiu shi bao ying.
accumulate merits for the future.
is tt wad i'm suppose to do?
so tt my life will be easier in tym to come.
away wif the karma.
away wif the pain.
times haf changed.
for the beta i hope.
memories tt last foreva.
will still do.
tings in my life will continue to stay.
perspectives of people are definately different now.
for i've learn the true meaning of love.
thank you for teaching mi.
the warmth tt i've once felt.
a new destiny awaits upon mi.
a new rival.
a new hope.
the greatest obstacle of my life.
is not u.
but my unwavering heart.
my soul lies within the depth of ur seed.
till the day it ends.
it'll foreva be there.
<lotsa love>
emily_* ^smiling always^
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8:22 AM
Saturday, October 28, 2006
long time since i've last updated.
thx alot frens for being there when i needed u all.
i guess i'll jux take in e stuff tt i wanna believe in.
it's kind of stupid cox this mean i might b lying to myself.
but ya. who cares.
i'm nvr gd at facing up to reality.
wad made u tink i'll be able to this time round.
wo shuo dao zhuo dao.
wo da ying zhi zi de shi wo yi ding ban de dao.
jux wait n see.
gimme some time.
i'll do wadeva i can.
but if e end product is gonna stay.
at least i can say tt i've tried my best.
i take this as a challenge. as a test.
in future we're gonna turn back, look at it n haf a gd luff.
for e sake of our promise.
for e sake of our hearts.
for e sake of our 'child'.
i'll do e best tt i can to overcome all odds.
i'll try wif every might to pull strings together.
put aside all tots n hold on to u.
till e very end i'll strive.
for now.
jux workhard, hang in there n i'll b wif u.
huggs__________*
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hmm..
went to lots of places these days.
united our class alot more.
especially e winning of drama fest!
hahaz.
din reali expect tt we'll get it.
but we did.
n e most exciting part of all is...
the reward of 100 DOLLARS!!
cold hard cash!!
wahahahax..
intend to use part of it for end yr chalet.
the other part class fund.
n thx to yan chang too.
we dun hafta pay a single cent for e chalet!!
YIPPEE!!!
went to kbox too tt day.
we almost spoil the sofa if not for our feather light weight.
heex. craze was e theme of tt day.
we went from tuo tiao to faint to numb to lian-ai-ing.
n most of all.
clement n jason SANG!!
isn tt amazing.
jason singing tong hua.
can u jux imagine tt.
OMG-ness..
but he had sk as his translator lahx.
gd job sk! (x
last but not least.
we got to take some neoprints!!
had to literally drag the guys into e machine.
but managed to persuade them in e end.
*refer to my friendster or ming ming's blog for e pics (:
so sad tt i culdn make it to jamming on fri.
wanted so badly to go.
oh well. shall organise another 1 someday (:
n i will b soooo looking 4ward to it (x
HAPPY HOLIDAYS EVERYONE!!
<lotsa love>
emily_* ^smiling always^
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